December 21, 2010

To breathe again / preview

This is a preview of a new story I'm working on that's called To breathe again (or at least that's its name for the time being) that I'd like to share with you. Please let me know what you think of it, it means the world to me!





The floor was cold and so was her body, her broken body. Her skin was pale because of the lack of sunlight and her hair was greasy. Her once perfectly manicured nails were broken and she could not remember the last time she had showered. Kate had been locked up in this room, this cell, for a long time. The walls were grey and so was the floor. There were no windows, only one metal door which could not be opened from the inside. She thought she was in some kind of basement, but she was not sure. She could be on the top floor of the building just as well.
All of this was horrible and disgracing, but Kate did not care that much about this. What she was most worried about was how the most beautiful boy in the world, Zachary, was in pain. Zack was in so much pain, she knew, and she could not do anything about it.

"Mother of God, can't you do anything?" a voice said rather loud from somewhere behind the door. She moved over to the door slowly so she could hear properly what was going on even though she did not want to hear it. She would have whistled if she could, to stop the sound from entering her ears, but her throat was dry and her lips painfully chapped. Now that she could not ignore the sound she would rather hear it clearly than having to worry about half-heard words.
She heard a sickening thud and she wished she hadn’t.

"Boy, you've disgraced not only us, but your family too! Your ancestors would be extremely humiliated. How could you do that to them? Don't you have any shame?" These manipulating words were followed by a long silence. It was so silent that Kate could hear Zack groaning in pain.
It hurt, like sharp knives carving into your flesh. Her lip quivered as she thought of her boy lying there in obvious agony without anyone –without her - to hold him and tell him it will be alright somehow, someday.

She stopped herself from sobbing and leaned her back against the brick wall carefully. Her back ached but it didn’t matter, because it was nothing compared to those red hot knives that made her insides throb. If it wasn’t for Zack, she would have given up weeks ago. If it wasn’t for the love that she held onto with all her strength, she would have curled up in a ball and shut out the world.

Hope was too big a word for the confined space left in her manipulated head and broken heart. She heard footsteps and then the closing of a door and she relaxed. She had made herself believe that they only hurt him when she could hear, so as to torture the duo at once. She stretched out on the cement floor slowly, feeling her joints pop. She focussed on a happy memory and forced herself to shut out sound, feel and sight by closing her eyes and relaxing as much as she could. She needed to stay strong mentally. 

November 28, 2010

Tuseme Children Empowerment

Als je op de titel klikt kom je op de blog van mijn studiemaatje Nina.
Zij heeft een eigen project opgericht in Tanzania, op deze blog kan je er alles over lezen en leer je ook hoe je kan doneren zodat je de kids kan helpen! :)

November 02, 2010

I hate the way you look today

And so tonight
I’ll remember your shaky hands as you
Unscrew the lids
Of those shady bottles
I hate this part

And I hate the way you look today
I hate how darkness surrounds your bright green eyes

I dissolve into nothingness
A little more
A little further away
Each time

You move me
Turn me upside down
I’m shaken so shaken
Each time

Oh and I hate the way you look today
I hate the grey of your greasy skin

I disappear EVAPORATE
I am less than what I’m worth
I am tiny so tiny now
I am gone

March 14, 2010

vuur en ijs

Met mijn handen
naar de lucht en
mijn ogen
wijd
hield ik van de wereld

Met mijn handen
wijd en
mijn ogen
naar de lucht
hield de wereld van mij

January 25, 2010

Publiciteit

Naar aanleiding van mijn gedicht F. is deze foto (grote versie) gemaakt door Jan van den Berg in Middelburg. Dinsdag 26 januari zal over dit project, waar meerdere dichters bij betrokken zijn, een artikel komen in de PZC. Dit project is n.a.v. nationale gedichtendag gestart.

Op 'mijn' foto zie je het beeld dat het gedicht oproept -handen die elkaar loslaten- in beeld gebracht door Jan van den Berg dus, mij en Joost van Kampen.

Ga naar http://www.dedikkeophaal.nl/gedichtendag.html voor meer informatie.